monday

i have a marshmellow stuck in my mouth.this is probably my last post for monday.i'm mad at mikey way.i don't really like him,i find him repugnant(or as samantha would say,repulsive.) but anywho,hes engaged to alicia simmons.her myspace is myspace.com/aliciasimmons. but theres pictures of her and mikey kissing.THAT IS DEPRESSING! little mikey is growing up... :( I DON'T WANNA GROW UP!!!
-my heart will go on starts to play-
i mean,don't they know that the fans will get upset and depressed?i mean,if gerard way was to do something like that(wich he stated he wouldn't!!!i think...) but what if,i would be so upset.i wouldn't be able to listen to their music anymore.i'd be crushed.i wouldn't want to do anything anymore.no music would help me cope.i mean DUDE,suicidal time.though my friends would help me cope.samantha had to go through pete bein' wif ashlee simpson.but seriously,why?why do that to your fans?i don't understand.are they thrilled with the moment?or do they want to brag their little hearts out?(i'm not throwing off on mikey or anything,this is to everyone) really,i don't want to announce to the world who i'm dating.(i'm single,MUWAHAHAHA!!!!! i beleive i'll b single for quite a while...hehehahahehooha....)
but i trust little gergard.i trust him not to do that to us.i'm god,doesn't he know what it feels like?he said he did.it feels so crappy.(once again i do not like mikey,i'm just makin' a point) if only the rich and famous spoiled little-
....
-sigh-
knew what they did to us.but i doubt they care,'cause they've got everything.GO THEM!SCREW US i'm addressing that especially to paris hilton ;)
i'd no longer love gerard if he did that.y'all could care less.y'all don't know me,and may never.WHO CARES ABOUT THIS F-ED UP 11 YEAR OLD EMO BlTCH?HUH?HUH?I GUESS F-ING MR.FENTRESS IS RIGHT,I AM DEPRESSED!!!!
I BET Y'ALL THINK I'M PATHETIC.GO CRY ON YOUR BLOG WANTING ATTENTION...BLAH BLAH BLAH....SOMETIMES YOU'VE GOTTA LET OUT YOUR EMOTIONS THAT YOU'VE BEEN LONGING TO DO ALL FREAKIN' YEAR!!!!!!!!!

People come,people go
Stay a while and still must go
Say good-bye to your friends
Say hello to your fait
'Cause the bad always wins

Keep the past,hold the present
You can't forget your old mistakes
Now you must face your future fakes
'Cause life isn't a dream
You can't just wake up
Its not what it seems

Say hello to your brother
Say good-bye to you mother
Show sympathy to the past
And regret for tomorrow
Because life has to go on

As much as you can't say
That you really don't want to stay
Something keeps you hear
From day to day
Month from month
Year and year
Who or what is it?
Now do you fear?

Worst to worser
Bad to badder
Your dream won't come true
You can't seem to pull through
He'll never meet ya
He'll never see ya
You only hear him sing
A dreadful tune

Just know that I am here
I'm not pathetic,I'm not pathetic
I SCREAM SO LOUD,NO ONE CAN HEAR
I'M INVISIBLE,ITS NOT REAL.
SCREW THE PAST FACE YOUR FEAR
Its all just messed up
We're all just f-ed up...

Dude,that was completely random.I'm just upset for no reason.I wanna be friends with gerard way....i know its silly,hannah even said hes to good for me.sum friend she is...but i'm different......i don't know why.gerard doesn't seem like some goody two shoe superstar who has it all.hes different,too.really,it seems like gerard is like,my best friend already,when i'm at school its like hes there.its scared me so much.its like i'm waiting for something to happen,but theres nothing to look forward to,really.i'm just waitin'.
GOD I'M ANNOYING MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!(talk about split personality)WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?YES I'M PHYSCO(anybody knows that)STARDOM SUCKS!WHY ARE THEY TO GOOD FOR THE NORMAL,REGULAR PEOPLE.WHY CAN'T THEY SEE THROUGH THE SCREAMS AND SEE WHO WE ARE,LIKE WE SEE THROUGH THEM?? god,the only thing i can do to get this out is to complain and scream. it be awesome for a filthy rich bltch to have a day in my life.oh,its not some stoll in the park.i'm far from perfect....
goodness,have i gone off topic...this is a strong post...hope i helped.MUWAHAHAHAHA
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I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! that read...


NOTE:I'M JUST REALLY SCREWED UP RIGHT NOW.JUST FACING REALITY.i'm normally not this drasticaly outrageous,hehe.

stay jolly xoxo oxox